Like the Graceful Dolphin, I shall Dive into the Chaotic Oceans!

                     I had a nice weekend. Saturday Nate and I kinda hung around the house. I sorted laundry while watching reruns of " In Living Color " on BET, and caught one of my favorite movies on, " Simon Birch ". Anyways, so yesterday I went and did laundry. Had the...ummm....pleasure? Of meeting a wiccan who went on a tirade of how pride of individuality within spirituality is egotistical, after she announced in a loud voice that she spent 10 years with Laurie Cabott in Salem. Hmmm.... yeah. Well...you could definately tell she had hung out with Laurie... as per she was a few apples short of a full bushel. So then I came home, folded laundry with Nathan, fought with a cranky 4 year old, and found myself feeling very, very drained. I mentioned to Nate that I think its time I whipped my ass back into shape...

                     I need excersize, I REALLY need to stop drinking so much caffeine, and I want to start eating healthier again. I made carrots last night from scratch...steamed...and by the Gods they were sooooooooooooooo delicious... proof that mother nature knows best. I also need to stimulate my brain. You won't see me in chat as much anymore... or even online as much. Its not that I need a chat break... its just that my computer is killing my brain cells. So, seeing as how I have about 200 books I have yet to read, its time I opened em up. I also need to start doing my crafty stuff in the morning while Emania's at school... like scrapbooking, Illumination, Caligraphy, and even needle point. I need to shut off the tv and enjoy the peace again... I've grown accostomed to noise, and I hate it. I want quiet again. I want to open my windows and hear the birds singing, not some teenage jackass on MTV saying how much he hates his parents. My life has become wrapped around being a mom so much, that when Emania's not here, I sit and stare off into space, unable to find something to do...even when its right in front of me. This spring, I want to go outside with a book at my patio table, and sit with a cup of coffee and a muffin... Sounds simple to most I'm sure... but to me... that was, and I hope will become again, my everything.

                       Today we met with Emania's therapists and her new teacher, Christine. The meeting went very well... and Emania is making incredible progress. Next month she'll be evaluated to find out if the BOE will cover her for summer school. Her therapists reccommend it, as do Nate and I... besides...it would give Emania some fun... AND... if we're lucky...Emania may be ready for kindergarden in the fall. Turns out that Emania has in fact made friends... she is the only girl except on Tuesday and Thursday... and the boys love her. She's always the first picked at play group... hehehe...and she's actually PLAYING with the kids. I'm so proud of her!!! So yeah...GO MANI!!!

                     On another side note...Can't wait to go shopping with Dhampy... haven't gone shopping with a friend since I was 17... I want some new clothes... and I need a new pair of shoes... I'd love some dressy boots too if I can afford it...