Like the Graceful Dolphin, I shall Dive into the Chaotic Oceans!

                     New years was fun, uneventful...sorta... and safe. Nate and I hung out here with Gwenee and our friend Dave. Had a drink...watched a couple movies... watched the ball drop with no real feelings of a " new start "... and watched Mariah Carey make a desperate attempt to fit her fat chunky ass into a tiny white dress....eww.

                    Its been groovy having Gwenee here. Nice peacful, funloving company. Yesterday we went to my mothers for dinner...Mmmmmmmm...Ham, Mashed Potatoes, Broccoli, and Black Olives...DROOL!!! Mom was in a crappy mood...but managed to catch her in a quick smiling moment...in which I asked..." Will you please take Emania for a couple of nights in February so we can take a trip to Toronto for Gwenee's birthday? " Her Answer......... YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO!!! SO, I get to see my two BESTEST friends...Wyse and Puck... Pinch their nipples... Terrorise local Canadians... get smashed at the Green Room... and celebrate Gwenee's birthday!!! OH...and make sweet love to my Nipple Monkeys...ROFL. Gods I can't wait...A trip to Toronto is just what the doctor ordered.

                     So, nothing much else going on here. Nate goes back to work tonight ( Le Sigh ) and Peanut returns to school tommarro...( Thank the Gods ). Mommy needs that couple of hours of silence again. I love having Nate home and conscious... but mommies need some silence now and then. I've made a deal with the Gods... I'll cool my temper if they leave me alone between the hours of 9 am and 11 am. Consider that " Lunch Break ".

                     Oh...on a sad note... Nate's grandpa Charlie is dying. He had a massive stroke a couple of weeks ago... was thrown in a nursing home ( Grrr ) and then ended up back in the hospital. Nate's step mom, Ronda, said she won't sugar coat it... its not a question of " if "...more like a question of when. May Anu ease his suffering and guide him peacfully home again. He was a great man. The saddest part of all of this... Nate's Grandmother and Grandfather were loaded. I won't go into details...but they were very smart. Anyways... Nate's father and Larry went to the lawyer to find out how much money their getting in the will. Greedy Motherfuckers. I had wondered why Greg ( Nate's dad ) kept saying to me " Don't worry Amy, I'm gonna do right by you guys and you won't have to worry about anything ". As far as I knew, he was broke. That and...I don't want anything from Greg. It seems....dirty. If Grandpa leaves Nathan anything...great... if not...whoopty fuckin doo. I wish Greg would learn that his misery is being caused by his refusal to see that money is NOT everything. Greed will be the death of him.

                    Any prayers for Charlie Votaw would be greatly appreciated. He was a good man. And I promise to thoroughly thank everyone for those prayers so no one feels unappreciated. Thank you.

                     Hope everyone had a safe New Years Eve and Day.

                   Colleen hunny... Nate wanted me to inform you that he did not mean it that way.