Like the Graceful Dolphin, I shall Dive into the Chaotic Oceans!

                       Ya know... I went to Cai's blog today to kindly ask him to not view my blog. But ya know, he's right. This IS a public blog. So if your family wants to read what I have to say, fine. But lets clear up a few things.

                        Why do I prefer Moonstonegl's " family " to stay out of my business?

                       1. I told that family where they could shove it, yet they seem to be stalking my every move.

                       2. I don't think associating with someone like Kate is healthy for my family. Why?

                                   a. She thought using my daughter as a plot to kidnap her would be a good form of showing the true side os someone else. Two wrongs don't make a right Kate.

                                   b. Kate thought she knew the truth about my sister Eleasaid, and decided to try to embarrass her with school yard bully tactics. What do I mean by that? She decided to post a website that Angel, Math, and Pierced created claiming that Ele was born a guy. Bravo. Oh, and before anyone claims Kate had nothing to do with it... I saw Kate post the website in Paganism 2, and she also sent it to Jackie in IM. There's just one problem with the whole website and bullying... its not true. But we'll get to that in a minute.

                                   c. Kate believes Kelly had the right of freedom of speech to attack several people, including myself. Freedom of speech is one thing. But I don't think I'd ever want to associate with anyone who finds my miscarriage hilarious because she believed Dom when he said I wasn't inviting her to a party. So because of a party, my miscarriage is funny? Boy am I glad I grew up.

                       3. Your family lives on drama, intrigue, back stabbing, and lies. I have enough stress in my own life to not want more. Yet, wherever I turn... drama seems to stalk me. Your family is almost always behind it.

                       Authur is dead. If this bullshit keeps up, I will pray to Arawn MYSELF that he never comes back.

                       Ok... lets set the record straight. I saw the picture Kate. You claim Ele was born a man. Are you SURE? Because I know the story behind the picture. I know what Eleasaid's history is. I am her sister. She entrusted me with who she is. Not WHAT she is, but WHO. So, everyone wants to know. Was Eleasaid born a man? The answer... DRUMROLL PLEASE. No. Read it again. No. She was not born male. Wanna know the true story? Too bad. Its none of your business. Its ELE'S business. People love her for who she is. Deal with it Kate. Why don't you mind your own P's and Q's? I am so glad Emania was born with parents who don't judge people based on their sexuality, sexual preference, or gender. You thought Vinnie was a blessing from the Gods.  But Vinnie  was claiming to be a woman, and was stalking women in hopes of getting a piece of ass. So, what makes him better? Is it because he was under your control? Maybe that was your problem. Ele isn't a man, so you can't force her into your trap along with the other men in your life. Man haters. I despise man haters.

                     This is for Shoinnan. You never told her the truth. You told her she wasn't ready for it. I know that first hand. But ya know what? She's over 30 years old. She's a mother of 4 beautiful children. She's battled on in the face of death several times. She's alot stronger than you may believe. As for the truth, I told her the truth. The truth shall always set you free. Funny... a Presbyterian Reverend taught me that. Anyways, did Shoinnan freak out when she learned the truth? Did she freak when the memories came crawling back? Of course not. Questions were answered. No matter how painful, how scary... enlightment rang true and she was able to move on. She's a Celt. A REAL Celt. Strong, Beautiful, Tough, Un-Afraid, Spiritual, Honest, and Courageous. You should take a lesson from her.

                    Cai, I love you. I still love you... both as a friend, a brother,a father, and a mentor. Ya know, Shoinnan and I had a long conversation a few days ago. A good one. It was about continuing to love those that we feel have hurt us, betrayed us, ect... I explained to her that continuing to love someone, no matter what, is what makes us the strong ones. Hate is easy. Love is hard. I hope that someday we can mend what has been torn. Not only for myself, but for Nathan and Emania as well. I hope you are well, and please send my love to T and the girls.

                 By the way... the next time you see that 21 year old... tell her its called " Ghu Deithe ", God Speaker, not talker. I do hope she knows that anyone can talk to the Gods, and that a God Speaker has a completely different meaning and role. Ah well...

                 One last thing Kate... still waiting for someone to crash that party... and kidnap my daughter... hmmm.

                 So, go ahead and read my Mindsay, my Live Journal, or anything else I decide to write on. Ya wanna know how much I love anal? Ya wanna know about my next spiritual experience? Wanna know about Nate's toe fungus? ( Ok...so he dosen't have fungus... but he could have at any time!!! )... Go ahead and read.